rakesh-za

I had everything planned That I wanted to say To you... But when I see you, My mind goes blank! I'm standing there Like injured prey, Trembling inside. I look at you And my mind Goes blank, Stunned by your beauty, I stand in the shadows, I picture me kissing You, It resonates in my mind, Your outer beauty Kills my inner Courage to approach. When your brown eyes Pierce my heart, I can only smile When you walk by. Knowing that day by day My weakness grows less, But when it's depleted, I would've been defeated... By someone who wasn't mesmerized by your beauty

it feels like i'm holding a gun, a gun thats loaded, my finger has the itch, the itch to shoot and i'm going to shoot you. i'll wait in the room, the room we made love in and i'll wait, wait behind the door. you'll open it, open it and walk in, turn around and see me smiling, holding my gun, aiming for your face, and i'll shoot you,   shoot you between the eyes, you'll fall down, down to the ground. the day you betrayed me is the day you will die, i'll keep my gun loaded, loaded but hidden away, hidden away in my holster, watch your step, coz that one into the room will be your last! your brains will splatter,

As I look at myself, I fear what I have become. As I open another door, I see death, laughing at me, for I have become what I feared. Not knowing where to go, where to look, Where to turn, I stay away to hide myself, For I have become what I feared. Whenever I go out, I wear a mask for everyone To see, not knowing when to take off my mask, I hide my inner self, For I have become what I feared.